Some moments in life leave a deep mark on the soul. For me, that moment was when I made a decision that wasn’t my own, a decision that changed the course of my life in ways I never imagined. At the time, I thought I was doing the right thing. The people around me seemed happy, and their approval was enough for me, or so I thought. But deep down, there was a quiet voice telling me something wasn’t right, but I ignored it. I drowned it out with thoughts of responsibility, sacrifice, and the fear of disappointing others. I still remember that moment. The weight of my decision weighed heavily on my heart, but I still smiled. I convinced myself that keeping others happy was more important than my happiness. I thought I would endure anything, as long as the people I loved were happy. Days turned into weeks, and my resolve began to crack. What had once seemed like a small sacrifice began to eat away at me from the inside. I had lost my sparkle, my confidence, and my sense of self. The very people I had tried so hard to make happy, couldn’t understand my struggle, they took my sacrifice for granted. I began to feel like I had become a shadow of my old self. Every decision I made after that was shaded with regret. I realized I had lost a part of myself, and I didn’t know how to get it back. It wasn’t until I reached the lowest point in my life that I stopped running from the truth. I realized that losing myself wasn’t just the result of that one decision, it was the result of years of prioritizing the happiness of others over my own. Slowly, I began to reflect on what I wanted and what kind of person I wanted to be. Rebuilding wasn’t easy. It took time, tears, and deep self-reflection to listen to my inner voice again. I learned to set boundaries and say “NO” without guilt. I learned that loving others doesn’t mean losing yourself. Most of all, I learned to forgive past mistakes. The day I lost myself will always be a part of my story. But now, that day is also the day I begin my journey to rediscovering my true self.
Book:Life I Didn't choose
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